Paralyzed! That is what I was. Unable to move, or help myself. No, I was not physically paralyzed, but my soul was shocked and stunned causing a numbness that left me speechless and lifeless.
We’ve all had those times, when we have circumstances pierce through our soul and spirit and render us helpless. Our lifeless state leaves us no place of reason or defense.
I was several days recovering from my paralysis. It was like it choked the life-breath from my body, even though it was my spirit that received the injury.
Spiritual pain is different from physical pain. It is not isolated to one area of the body. No, it affects the whole body, because the heart and mind are wounded.
Once the numbness slowly began to wear off and some sense of feeling started to return, I had thoughts of jumping up and attacking my attacker, to retaliate. But it was as if God said “No my child, you are not well enough to fight yet, you just stay right where you are, while I heal you completely”.
In my spiritually bedridden state I continued to heal. I used the time to pray and read. Words had injured me and now I needed God’s words to nurture me back to health. My words to him and his words to me.
It was like warm chicken soup and just the right dose of medicine.
Only The Great Physician can fully heal those who become sick in this way and through his healing make us stronger than before.
I am amazed by God continually. Amazed by his power to weaken us to make us stronger.
Just prior to my experience with such deep-rooted pain, I had the opportunity to grab a copy of a book, offered on Amazon, for only one day for free. I hadn’t read it yet and did not know much of the author. A trusted friend and mentor had recommended it.
The book was by John MacArthur ” The Power Of Suffering”.
Through the first chapters of this book, I have, along with prayer, found not only the healing I immediately needed, but medicine and life-giving spiritual supplements to keep me healthier in the future. Future exposure to this same kind of illness will not have such devastating effects.
Sufferings are such a part of our Christian life in this world and we should expect and rejoice when we are counted worthy to suffer. I can now honestly say along with Jesus and Stephen, “Lord forgive them, for they know not what they do”.
Now many months later, the same person who crippled me is closer and kinder than before. I believe this is because, I healed, forgave and never brought the incident up again. Over time, it was as if God used the painful event to work a good work in us both.
Though I do not know how they felt after such a brutal attack on my spirit, I have to believe there was a time of suffering on their part as well, and a time of healing. In conversation recently, I discovered that they had returned to the Lord after years of wandering.
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose”. Romans 8:28 KJV
“For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with glory which shall be revealed in us”. Roman 8:18 KJV
The lost world does not have the same resources for full recovery, that Christians do. Sadly many Christians do not utilize nor understand what is available to them. Without the proper Physician they fall into various stages of spiritual illness.
Some live daily lives, on pharmaceutical drugs to numb the pain and depression and yet never heal. How sad that should make us. We who have a healing God that says….take up thy bed and walk.
God help us to pray more for the souls that do not know you and your healing power!
How many times have you suffered wrongfully? How many times have you too been crippled by the injury? How long did it take you to heal and forgive?